let's bring things up to speed quickly...

- dad and I got into it. no longer staying with him.
- got blink tickets for chula vista on september 16th
- job is starting to get shady again
- might finally have a "career" in the music biz
- thinking about going back to school
- brittany ulbrich is a fucking troll and a slut to boot. fuck that bitch.
- allison powers is my favorite person in the world.


and now I'm off to Millions of Milkshakes with my boo.

11 more days

until I turn 23. And then this lyric will finally apply to me:

"Nobody likes you when you're 23 and you still act like you're in freshman year..."

I better not have to tell you where that's from either.

Anyway, while we're on the subject - I'm bummed to the max that I didn't get tix for Irvine. My summer plans seem to be dwindling down to nothing. Hawaii with Allison is off now since I lost my job. It's too late to get affordable tickets for the week of our 2 year anniversary. Now it seems like I'm not going to see the one band I've been dying to see.

*sigh*

In other news, I'm working again. I've also been seeing some positive feedback on my music (beats) and now one of my artists (Marvilus) is doing a track with Nocturnal and getting paid a G for ONE verse. Props to Lloyd for putting me on as well. I got an email back from a guy he got me in contact with that might be able to get me some big money for my beats. Shit, if I can make a couple g's off these beats I've been working on I'll be straight fot the summer. Actually if I get 2 g's I'm buying Allison's car off her...

It's like someone just time warped me to Sophomore Year

"Blink-182's summer tour is set to start on July 24th til October with ticket prices ranging from $20-$60. Fall Out Boy and Weezer will support." from Absolutepunk.net

Teenage girls around the US are going to have their ginies tickled to the point of destruction. And I will be there to witness the pop-punk glory of it all.

Silly

Silly Girl, I knew it all along
you can't keep up this charade, just admit you were wrong
you went from talking like a big shot, like some kind of boss
but you know down in your heart all you're feelin is loss
you wanna act like you do give a fuck, but thats all games
and I was right from day one to handle it this way
now I'm happier than I've been in a long long time
you want to know why?
cause I let my insecurities die

(ITS A WORK IN PROGRESS LOL)

Murs - Break Up (The OJ Song)

I think every man can relate to this song...I know I can. Even after all these years, sometimes you hear a line or two in a song that makes you go "Damn" over someone from your past and you just gotta laugh about it.

holy shit.

I remember this feeling.

It's almost 5 in the morning and I can't sleep.

Insomnia? Stress? Anxiety? I don't know what to call it.

I'm losing faith in myself slowly. I've been at a creative standstill as of late. I downloaded Photoshop CS3 today with hopes of jumping back into graphic design again but I can't come up with anything I like. I wanted to redesign my music page on myspace to promote the new music I've working on. I've also been trying to get myself focused in on this new "Life of a Gemini" project I've been working on with Larry, but can't seem to come up with anything for that either.

Let's throw in the fact that once again I'm jobless, broke, and showing no signs of productivity.

What happened to me?